Why is it that we get so lost in the math lessons and the spelling lists that academics trump relationships? Why do we forget that God called us to keep our kids at home so that we could share our lives with one another and invest in our children? We are so busy checking boxes that we rarely slow down long enough to look our precious children in the face, to look into their trusting eyes and see into their hearts. After the first day of our local homeschool convention I walked away exhorted, admonished and encouraged.
One of the main verses that the Lord impressed upon my heart while listening to various speakers was this verse…
Talk about a gut check. If a student (i.e. my children), when they are fully trained (i.e. leave my care and authority), are to be like their teacher (i.e. me) that can be a very scary thought. I was reminded today about the necessity of pursuing God with all MY heart, mind, soul and strength. The reminder was loud and clear, this isn’t about academics, it is about relationships. About discipleship. About taking my children along side me as I seek to know God and make Him known in my life. It has very little to do with math and penmanship and everything to do with loving God and loving others.
Friends, this is hard. I love my children with a fierceness that runs deep, however, at times I just go through the motions in the name of productivity. When I think about this verse and the implications that arise, I am reminded of the broken and weak vessel that I am. I am incapable in my own strength of being worthy to be called teacher. Yet I know this is exactly where God wants me to be.
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 Corinthians 12:9
God has called me not to depend on myself, my creativity, or my ability to lay out a plan but to trust in the power of Christ. I am called to rest in the truth that it is He who began a good work in my life and the lives of my children will complete it. I believe trusting and resting means prioritizing discipleship over productivity and relationships over results. This means setting aside worry about academic endeavors and seeking first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and letting God fill in gaps. To do these things I must be pursuing the kingdom through the means of grace. I am reminded of one of my very favorite quotes,
“The only way to keep a broken vessel full is to keep the faucet running.” – D.L. Moody
The imagery of a clay pot that is broken yet usable only if the water is continually running is one I can relate to. This has been true in my own life, when I am weak He is strong. That is my prayer as I prepare for the upcoming year that God would be made known through my weakness and that I can be a teacher worthy of imitation so that I can say to my children, “follow me as I follow Christ.”